How To Find Your Style

For a long time I wasn’t really confident in how I looked and just recently I realized that I I didn’t have a set style of clothing in my house.

Thing is,  I also just realized that I didn’t need a set style either. My style is eclectic, meaning I like to mix a bunch of different styles and mix it into one. Or just dress really prissy one day, and then straight like a tom boy the next day.

Being that I’m broke though, my current wardrobe will not show for it.



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this is my favorite look of all time from sydney carlson 17266048_750034515165603_347431934776836096_n17334228_742365965924913_5963483174766903296_n





Time Doesn’t Love You

screenshot_2017-01-04-15-05-512And as you stand there, on the cold tile floor looking at your immaculate reflection in the misty mirror,  I see your smile slowly start to dissappear as your reflection becomes more clear.

I know what you are thinking.  Another birthday has gone by,  you won’t look as good as me.

Baby I don’t care. The way you smell rocks my world. That’s what attracted me to you in the first place. Had I seen you in my human life I would have admired your perfect jaw line and bone structure. Or maybe the way your curly chocolate hair lays on your broad shoulders.  Oh I could go on.  My point is,  all i am really attracted to,  besides your wonderful personality of course is your scent. Of course, if I turn you,  there will be no reason to love you.

I’m tired of seeing perfect looking 200year Olds.  I think crows feet at the corners of the eyes are super hot.  I want you to have wrinkles.

Can’t you see? Time isn’t on your side baby but I am.

I will never leave you. Your human life is something that is so beautiful and sweet to me. I cherish it. You are literally my human other half.  You’re everything I am not. If you think I will be come less attracted to you as the decades go by then think again. I can’t wait to be by your side when life throws you lemons. All I have to do is Suck the sour juice out and your pain is forever gone. So,  for me baby,  please don’t make me turn you.

The Battle In My Mind

message_14783493888352Billy the pitt.

Billy the pitt is more than loyal to his owner.

Eats all the insects so his owner doesn’t have to freak out and kill them.  Pees and poops only outside,  like a dog should. Basically Billy the pitt does everything his owner asks of him if not more.

Billy’s owner has been telling him to stop eating all the creepy crawling things because he’s got it.  But every time Billy turns around,  there’s more and more bugs.

Billy has not eaten any bugs in almost a year.  He’s waiting on his owners word that he’ll step in and do his job like he said he will and take care of the problem,  but he’s not.

Billy’s owner reminds him of all the things he has to do before he can kill all the bugs and that he’s almost there but Billy is not sure.

Billy the pitt is started to get flees and stuff like that and although Billy can take care of himself he is  still  Reliant on his owner.

Lastly,  Billy sees everything his owner goes through and how close he is to being able to do what he said he will do but at the same time Billy the Pitt just wants to take matters into his own hands.

What should Billy do?  Continue to wait on his owner or take care of it himself?


Billy honestly needs  an answer.




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Happy new year

screenshot_2017-01-01-19-11-392Why after every 365 days we all count down to the exact second that’s its the supposed ‘happy new year’?

Why do we always assume it’s gonna be happy new year?

Call me pessimistic but for the last 3,650 days all I see people say on social media is how bad the late 365 days was and how great they’re gonna Make the next ones.

Why Pre-plan?


Of course go into the new 365 days with a freakn positive attitude.

But not this overwhelming predictction of what the next 365 days  will look like!

Cause obviously that’s exactly  what you did 365 days ago and you’re saying the same things.  So change it up! (in hopes it won’t be the same)


But yea folks be glad you made it to another 365 days!




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How To Stop Depression 

Disclaimer : If you are not a spiritual person or if you are an atheist I advise you to leave this article, although if you are open then please continue reading.

For the past month I’ve been depressed. I don’t have a job,  don’t have any money, my YouTube is barely progressing and for that reason I can’t start my sleep wear line quite yet.  On top of that I’ve gained football man arms and a slightly fatter back. I’ve got red dots AKA: acne and super short hair. Yea,  my self esteem is pretty low as well. Not to mention my living situation is complicated as a mother and I’d rather not depress you all with it.  How do I overcome it all?

  1. Find The Reason

Is there something in your life that you wish you were doing but you can’t?  If so,  try and do the very minimal of something similar.  Example,  me,  my cell phone fell in a dogs water bowl and now I can’t make YouTube videos. Instead I’m on WordPress lol.

Just try to find the root of your depression and do your best to make up for it.

2.Find A Way To Let It Out

You can vent to a friend,  or diary.

Make a positive song list.  I’m telling you!  The song list really helps me out.  I have a worship Playlist that reminds me of God’s goodness and makes me want to live everyday.  I also have a regular music Playlist that makes me feel confident!  Ill leave both Playlists at the end of this article.

3. Watch YouTube videos. YouTube is basically like Google and it definitely has good videos on how to get out of a rut.

Sorry this article kind d of sucked but yea. You have have to push yourself to get out of the situation that you’re in.  Get a job, get out of the house you’re living in with ppl you can’t stand. Face your fears, step out of your shell,  think about the people in other countries that don’t have near as much opportunity as you and make your life fun again.

Pray! Talking to Jesus about your problems is not bad.  You may be like,  but I never talk to him and isn’t it kind of messed up that the only time I talk to him is when  I’m in trouble?  Trust me,  that’s the last thing Jesus is thinking about.  Your God’s son or daughter and he wants to be there for you.  If you’ve been living your life with out him and all of a sudden  you call on him, he’s gonna be so grateful that you even thought about him.  Trust me!

Well I hope this was helpful! If you think so then please like this and let me know your thoughts in the comments!

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Worship playlist:

Same God-Tye Tribbet

Jealous-Chris Burns


A little longer-Jen  Johnson

Regular playlist:

Watch me Rise-Mikky Ekko

Confident – Demi Lovato



Move along-All American Rejects

You Love The Maddnesss 

They do bad things for money,  yet you extend your home to them. 

Their little ones don’t come from your womb,  you do them a favor

They cuss you out,  steal your personal belongings,  and yet you extend your house hold

You love the madness 

You with 3 little ones against 3 heart killers 

Everyday something new,  new heartbreak,  new name calling but yet you extend your house hold 

You love the maddness

There was a death scare then a betrayal right after.  4 hours of being afraid and sadness and 12 more hours of rage and anger and  deceit. 

Still you extend your household,  you love the Maddnesss. 

You  love the Maddnesss because if you didn’t,  you wouldn’t extend your home to name callers and slanderers .  thieves and liars.  Deceivers and other family members. 

If you don’t mind stretching out your lungs to the fullest everytime one of the people get mad then OK.  Sure.  Extend your home.  You don’t mind it,  you love it. 

If you don’t mind getting blamed for things of the past day after day for weeks on end then OK.  Sure. Extend your home. You don’t mind it,  you love it. 

If you don’t mind crying yourself dry whenever one of those people gets a negative answer from you then OK.  Sure.  Extend your home you don’t mind it you love it. 

Just know that when  you’re actually over the situation and you’re actually done with the wackiness that I’ll never know because I know you love the maddness. 

Kill My Darling 

He had been drinking too much. He thought he’d celebrate because the campaign he had been working on the past 2 years had actually won! Dwayne, The Rock, Johnson was finally president of the United States. 

Let’s be honest, The rock didn’t win fair and square, He dug up some dirt on the other candidate and that’s the real reason he won.

The other candidate had A dirty past. We won’t get into the details of that but let’s just say if anybody knew that HE knew he would be dead. 

This was one of my husbands biggest accomplishments and I was so excited for him. We’ve been celebrating on a cruise in the Bahamas. One night I go out into the pool  while my husband is taking a shower in our room and a tall white man in an all black suit pulled me over to the side.  He asked me if I had been married. He asked me if I loved him. He asked me if I knew anything about the other candidate. He asked me if my husband knew. He also is wearing dark black sunglasses and after each question he asked me his eyes scanned my eyes and somehow he could tell I was lying. He pulled a gun out and asked me if I knew anything about the candidate once again I told him no . And once again he asked me if my husband knew about the other candidate and then I told him no again. He told me that he knew I was lying and asked me for my life or my husband’s life. I told him I was pregnant but he shouldn’t kill my husband either. But he killed my darling anyway.